So you thought I was gone, didn't you?
You can't get rid of me that easily. I won't go into the whole cliche about roaches and the apocalypse, because I think it's unfortunate to describe anyone as a cockroach, especially if that person would be me. I've taken a mini sabbatical from this thing for a number of reasons, mainly school and being a bit under the weather for the entirety of December, but don't fret. I'm hoping ot update this thing pretty regularly. It fits with one of my resolutions for the new year, which we'll get into in a bit.
I've been reading a lot lately, and I've forgotten how much it calms me down. One thing especially is a specific blog. I usually don't like reading blogs that much because what most people have to say doesn't really interest me. Say what you want, but I'm just being honest. And probably saying what a lot of people are thinking. This man, Max Dubinksy, has a blog called MakeItMAD, here.
This man inspires me like no one has in quite a while. He is a writer living in LA and struggling with everything from alcohol to women to pornography. What man in his 20's isn't doing that? What makes it so inspiring is that he is learning to find God once again, and this is what is calling out to me. I grew up in a very secular household until we moved to the South. From the ages of 10 to 18, we became a religious family. Not crazy fanatics, but we understood the idea of God's love the shortcomings of man. When I went off to college in the big bad city of Atlanta, I was exposed to so many different things, some good, most bad. It made me forget about what I had learned. I was drinking too much, started experimenting with some questionable substances, skipping class, lying. Basically I was living in the world instead of in the Word. It wasn't "cool" to be a christian anymore, so I shrugged it off.
Max has consciously been trying to get back to the basics, and that means getting back to God. This is where the respect for him I have continues to grow. It has inspired me to go back to church and regain that zeal for the Lord that I once had. Like Max has said time and time again, it's going to be a struggle, but maybe that's exactly what I need. I've made it my mission to change the way I live my life. Which brings me to my new year's resolutions. So lets begin.
1). Finish everything that I start.
-This has always been tough for me. I always have the best intentions, but as they say, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.
2). Listen more and talk less.
-I have begun to notice that at times I tend to dominate conversations. I want to listen more and actually gain an interest into what most people say.
3). Lost some weight.
-This is pretty self explanatory.
4). Have more fun.
-And by fun, I don't mean drink myself into oblivion and run around naked like a drunken idiot. Movies, Plays, Art Exhibits, Days in the Park. Things like that.
5). Write more.
-You can't be a writer if you never write. I have a few ideas in my mind, and the first one is a work in progress. The good thing about that is, it's going to be a good catharsis.
6). Live more for the Lord.
-I want to be a role model for people that don't even know my name. I want people to see me and the way I present myself and the way I act, and think to themselves, "Man, I want to be like THAT guy." I have a friend like that. Who doesn't want to be him? If I can try to be more like him, my life will only be more fulfilling. But not in a creepy, Single White Female kind of thing.
It's gonna be a good year. It's gonna be a tough year. It could be the best year of my life. Whatever happens this year, I'm going to make the best of it, and dammit, I'm gonna lose 25lbs by April.
You thought you knew me. It's time to see if you're right.
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